Hold Me

I was going through my notes, when I found a poem I wrote earlier this year. Now you must understand that I was on the tail end of a rough time when I wrote this...and also that, when I write, I exaggerate details to make the poems fit better. 

This one is called Hold Me. 

Someone hold me while I fall asleep

Though I know you won't stay

I still reminisce over that day

For those lost days I still weep

The tear I cry is but an ocean

Forever, have I lost you?

My love remains true

But is this feeling just a notion?

In the darkness, I am bound

Among these battles of mind

The want of something so kind

In those moments I was found

A wish to dissolve in this rain

A wish for a break in the storm

Recalling clearly, you held my arm

I survive in midst of pain

A face I use to know so well

I struggle to read now

The pain I know, you never show

The pain you feel, you'll never tell

Take me back to the early days

You were forever mine

But now like ashes and wine

I, awakened to your ways

What happens from now on

From all the days ahead and passed

Learn from trials upon us cast

But now, forced to move on

These ties to you are so strong

Will my mind ever be clear?

Losing you was my greatest fear

Now talking to you seems wrong

You have a past, so do I

What more could one expect?

Your choices I do respect

The chances you give, I see why

...

By now, I have moved on from the trial of that time. And by the grace of God, it has been for the betterment of me. 

Thanks for stopping by long enough to read this! 

Also, I might try to write a paper on teen suicide/self harm/depression, for that's been something that I want to write about for a while now...so, if you like, stay tuned!